Nearly two weeks have passed and I must say that God is working in my heart in big ways. I still have moments when the panic sets in and I fear that I won't be able to find work... or more importantly, find work that I will enjoy. But for the most part, I'm just feeling at ease with God's plans for me and trusting that He will provide, as He always seems to.
I've been trying to make the most of this week off. I'll admit that last week was a bit of a write-off due to fact that the shock and pain of losing something I loved so much, was still too much to wrap my head around. But this week has been infinitely better and I'm amazed at how much I've been able to enjoy this time to myself. I signed up for a membership at the Leisure Centre and have really enjoyed spending my mornings working out at the gym. Its been a great time for me to think about life and what's in store for the future, plus I'm getting in shape again, which feels awesome! I've always enjoyed exercising but always seemed "too busy" to make time for it. I'd forgotten how much I love to run, even if it is on a treadmill :) The other nice thing about my membership is that it allows me to get into the pool for free. So I'm going to take my nephew Konrad to the pool today. I think he's pretty excited about using his "water-wings" and the fact that he'll get a treat at Tim Horton's afterward :) It'll be fun to have some time, just the two of us, and I'm sure Naomi will enjoy some time with only one little one at home.
As for jobs, I've started to look but still haven't really found anything that grabs me. It doesn't help that I'm completely unsure of what exactly I want to do. All I know is that I definitely need to do something totally different for a while. As much as I've enjoyed design and may come back to it eventually, I'm just feeling like I need a good change in my life. Something completely unrelated if possible. I'd like to see what other areas God has gifted me in and give those things a try for a while. Let's just hope there are other giftings :)
So with that, I'm just going to keep looking for work and in the meanwhile, continue enjoying coffee dates with friends, lunches out, pool dates with Konrad, and lots of time to exercise and ponder what life's all about.
Maybe this isn't so bad after all... :)