Thursday, January 24, 2008

Life as I now know it...

Nearly two weeks have passed and I must say that God is working in my heart in big ways. I still have moments when the panic sets in and I fear that I won't be able to find work... or more importantly, find work that I will enjoy. But for the most part, I'm just feeling at ease with God's plans for me and trusting that He will provide, as He always seems to.

I've been trying to make the most of this week off. I'll admit that last week was a bit of a write-off due to fact that the shock and pain of losing something I loved so much, was still too much to wrap my head around. But this week has been infinitely better and I'm amazed at how much I've been able to enjoy this time to myself. I signed up for a membership at the Leisure Centre and have really enjoyed spending my mornings working out at the gym. Its been a great time for me to think about life and what's in store for the future, plus I'm getting in shape again, which feels awesome! I've always enjoyed exercising but always seemed "too busy" to make time for it. I'd forgotten how much I love to run, even if it is on a treadmill :) The other nice thing about my membership is that it allows me to get into the pool for free. So I'm going to take my nephew Konrad to the pool today. I think he's pretty excited about using his "water-wings" and the fact that he'll get a treat at Tim Horton's afterward :) It'll be fun to have some time, just the two of us, and I'm sure Naomi will enjoy some time with only one little one at home.

As for jobs, I've started to look but still haven't really found anything that grabs me. It doesn't help that I'm completely unsure of what exactly I want to do. All I know is that I definitely need to do something totally different for a while. As much as I've enjoyed design and may come back to it eventually, I'm just feeling like I need a good change in my life. Something completely unrelated if possible. I'd like to see what other areas God has gifted me in and give those things a try for a while. Let's just hope there are other giftings :)

So with that, I'm just going to keep looking for work and in the meanwhile, continue enjoying coffee dates with friends, lunches out, pool dates with Konrad, and lots of time to exercise and ponder what life's all about.

Maybe this isn't so bad after all... :)

8 comments:

Lettner Family said...

Bonnie, I was sad for you when I read you previous blog the other day, however, the first thing that came to my mind was that you have great opportunities before you!

You have TWO years of experience in design under your belt already, which is great on a resume! A lot of people don't get jobs in their field until long after they graduate...so good job there!! Any firm will see that as a great benefit.

Your attitude about it all is fantastic! I know it hurts to think that they let you go, but you are taking the right approach. God obviously has something fantasic ahead f you! I can't wait to find out what it is!

If you still want to do some design stuff on the side, think about putting your name out there on Craigslist (if you have that), or even on a bulletin board at church. One of my friends started getting her own design jobs through word of mouth. One lady wanted help decorating her remodeled house, was so pleased with her work, told others about her...now she has her own business...

Just some ideas. Be encouraged...God has given you gifts and talents that WILL not go unused! Thanks for sharing your heart...and thanks for trusting God, even when it is hard!

Trev & Rebekah said...

I hope that you find a job where you will be able to minister to others and where you will find joy each day that you work there.

Leanne said...

Looking forward to seeing you tomorrow!

Sally said...

I'm really glad that things are looking up... and that you are looking up so to speak as well. It is nice to take advantage of what I like to call "enforced downtime." I remember 2 weeks like that in New Zealand and at first I didn't know what to do with myself, but then... it was really nice.

Also, I agree with Nini. Smart girl that one.

Kaz said...

Ah, geez... I feel a bit guilty now... I should have been using my time off more wisely and worked out at the gym. Good for you!!!!

Jen said...

babe..when are we going to talk?

Tim and Kelsie-Lynn said...

You have an amazing attitude! I will totally keep praying that God gives you the best job for you right now.

Steph Gartner said...

Of course we want to have coffee with you!! Of course, you probably don't want to jet-set out to SK where you did move away from...it's warmed up to -29 already today! Balmy. We are hoping to get out there maybe in April or May for a long weekend or something to see our new niece or nephew who will be born sometime in the next few weeks! So if we make it, we'll do coffee then!