Friday, June 05, 2009

Saying goodbye...

My Granny passed away yesterday (my mom's mom).  She was my only surviving Grandparent and we were so thrilled that she was going to be around for the birth of her first great grandchild.  We had planned on naming the baby after her if it was a girl.  It just breaks my heart to know that she didn't quite make it long enough to hear the news of this new little life.  
All of my Mom's family are over in South Africa so even though Gran wouldn't have been here to meet the baby, I know she would have been thrilled to hear of its arrival.  I'm just so glad that my Mom was able to share with her over the phone, that the baby would be her namesake if it was indeed a girl.  She seemed to be so touched and excited about that.  
I just wish we could turn back the clock... have the chance to say good-bye... tell her how much we love her and how we're not ready to let her go...

We love you so much Gran.  May you know that you will 
always be missed and the void that is now left will 
never be filled.  Thank-you for the love & joy you brought
to our lives, even though we have been so far away.
We wish we could've had you here forever.  We love you...
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Clinging to the promise, that when life feels like too much... when the pain is too great, 
He will hold us in His arms.  

... This is what it means to be held.
How it feels when the sacred is torn from your life
and you survive.
This is what it means to be loved.
And to know that the promise was
when everything fell,
we'd be held...

-- Natalie Grant --

7 comments:

Jen said...

Beautiful post, Bon. We love you. Craig's feeling very helpless so far away. Give Mom an extra big hug for us.

Viv said...

Love it Bon. And of course, as I'm reading this I'm in tears again. Will call soon.

Sabrina said...

She looks like she would have been such a sweet woman. I see where you got your long and lean frame from Bonnie! Praying for sweet memories and stories to flood your mind as you celebrate your Granny's life and for peace and comfort as you grieve her passing.

Erich, Naomi, Konrad, Ava and Calvin said...

Thinking about you and your family. Hugs.

Anonymous said...

Hey Bonnie...I was so sad to hear the news. I only have one grandparent left, my mom's mom, so I know what it's like to cling to that last person of wisdom and unconditional love in your life. And of course you want them to be around for the big events in your life (ie. the birth of your first child, their first grandchild) I know that at my wedding I was sad that my other grandparents couldn't be there, but I so happy that my Grandma was still able to be there. I'm sure you've felt blessed by everything she has been for you, and all the big times she has been there for you...once again, so sorry, and I hope that your whole family is doing okay. Love you guys...
Carly

hailey said...

WE ARE PRAYING for you guys. Lots of love to you all...
She looks incredibly sweet in the photo you put up. Hope you are doing better darling. xoxo

Nathan and Melissa said...

I'm sorry to hear about your Granny. We are praying for you guys!