Sunshine & distraction...

The sun is shining today. In fact, its been shining for the last 5 days and is supposed to carry on into tomorrow. Despite the fact that I would much rather be outside enjoying the sunshine than stuck at work, it has put me in a surprisingly good mood. I went out to grab lunch and the balmy temperature of +11 celcius made me smile. OK, so balmy probably isn't quite the right word but it sure feels that way, compared to the winter we've had this year. So regardless of how ridiculous I might sound, I'm going to bask in this reprieve from the rain.

The week ahead will prove to be another busy one but I'm actually quite looking forward to it. I'm most excited about the fact that my friend Melissa and I are going to be starting some prenatal yoga classes together on Wednesday night. I've always wanted to try yoga but have never had the guts to go by myself. Now that I have a buddy to go with, the thought of some organized exercise is exciting. Having been a jock all of my life, this lax lifestyle that I've taken on since leaving college has been somewhat discouraging. So, hopefully this new outlet of activity will help get me back to some form of what I used to be. Or at least help with labour if nothing else :)

I've been feeling so distracted lately. Especially during church yesterday. I had promised myself that I wouldn't let this pregnancy consume me--- that I would be excited, but not consumed. But lately that's been getting more and more difficult. There are a lot of young babies in our church right now and I found myself staring longingly at them during the service, daydreaming about our little one. I keep wondering what he/she will be like. Who they'll look like. What sort of temperment they'll have. Whether it will be a girl or a boy (though I'll admit I really think its a boy--- not sure why exactly, I just do). I've already purchased a few baby items and clothes, so yesterday afternoon, I lay them all out in the spare room (which will soon be changed over to the nursery) and gazed at them for a while. The excitement is really taking over now. I look forward to having the summer off and taking long walks at the river with my Mom. I anticipate spending hot afternoons at the pool with Naomi and the kids. Spending time just holding our little bundle and snuggling them 'til they can hardly stand it anymore :) I never thought I could be so thrilled for this potentially scary stage of life. Fear is still in the background, but thankfully, joy is replacing it.

So for now, I'm trying desperately to keep focusing on the present and get through these next few months of work. Continuing to anticipate the future, but also realize that there is still life to live right now. I'm thankful for today. And on sunny days like today, that task seems so much easier...