Monday, January 19, 2009

Sunshine & distraction...

The sun is shining today. In fact, its been shining for the last 5 days and is supposed to carry on into tomorrow. Despite the fact that I would much rather be outside enjoying the sunshine than stuck at work, it has put me in a surprisingly good mood. I went out to grab lunch and the balmy temperature of +11 celcius made me smile. OK, so balmy probably isn't quite the right word but it sure feels that way, compared to the winter we've had this year. So regardless of how ridiculous I might sound, I'm going to bask in this reprieve from the rain.

The week ahead will prove to be another busy one but I'm actually quite looking forward to it. I'm most excited about the fact that my friend Melissa and I are going to be starting some prenatal yoga classes together on Wednesday night. I've always wanted to try yoga but have never had the guts to go by myself. Now that I have a buddy to go with, the thought of some organized exercise is exciting. Having been a jock all of my life, this lax lifestyle that I've taken on since leaving college has been somewhat discouraging. So, hopefully this new outlet of activity will help get me back to some form of what I used to be. Or at least help with labour if nothing else :)

I've been feeling so distracted lately. Especially during church yesterday. I had promised myself that I wouldn't let this pregnancy consume me--- that I would be excited, but not consumed. But lately that's been getting more and more difficult. There are a lot of young babies in our church right now and I found myself staring longingly at them during the service, daydreaming about our little one. I keep wondering what he/she will be like. Who they'll look like. What sort of temperment they'll have. Whether it will be a girl or a boy (though I'll admit I really think its a boy--- not sure why exactly, I just do). I've already purchased a few baby items and clothes, so yesterday afternoon, I lay them all out in the spare room (which will soon be changed over to the nursery) and gazed at them for a while. The excitement is really taking over now. I look forward to having the summer off and taking long walks at the river with my Mom. I anticipate spending hot afternoons at the pool with Naomi and the kids. Spending time just holding our little bundle and snuggling them 'til they can hardly stand it anymore :) I never thought I could be so thrilled for this potentially scary stage of life. Fear is still in the background, but thankfully, joy is replacing it.

So for now, I'm trying desperately to keep focusing on the present and get through these next few months of work. Continuing to anticipate the future, but also realize that there is still life to live right now. I'm thankful for today. And on sunny days like today, that task seems so much easier...

7 comments:

Tim and Kelsie-Lynn said...

I think what you are feeling is pretty normal. I remember feeling similar. Enjoy it, enjoy these moments of dreaming and hoping. I think anticipating your first baby is one of the most wonderful times of your life.

I hope you have a great time at your class. I didn't do any prenatal classes but I have done several post-natal ones and I am loving it.

I hope you continue to feel great. Are you feeling the baby move yet?

Heidi Epp said...

Oh bonnie, let yourself be consumed. Pregnancy goes so quick. And when are you going to yoga? I'd like to start going again.

Oh yeah, and I meant to tell you. Dr Joanne Menard is doing a seminar at lellow on Feb 23 (I think it's at 7pm) about prenatal acupuncture and accupressure during labor. I totally recommend. Roxanna said it reduced her pain by 1/2 and I totally wish I'd been more informed. I know feb is a bit early for you to be thinking about labor, but even to connect with other expecting moms. Let me know if you want register (its free but spots are limited.)

Talk to you soon!

Heidi Epp said...

oh yeah, and I also meant to tell you...I have a box of maternity clothes that your welcome to borrow if you want. In particular I have a pair of maternity jean capris that got me through last fall. They'd probably be perfect for spring. Your welcome to use them if you'd like.

Heidi Epp said...

oh yeah, and I also meant to tell you...I have a box of maternity clothes that your welcome to borrow if you want. In particular I have a pair of maternity jean capris that got me through last fall. They'd probably be perfect for spring. Your welcome to use them if you'd like.

Erich, Naomi, Konrad, Ava and Calvin said...

You sound just like the rest of us Bon. Part of pregnancy, especially the first is being excited and thinking about it lots. Trust me your next pregnancy will seem to go faster and the third is like a blink of the eye. Be impatient, be pregnant and love it!

Anonymous said...

Bonnie, I am so excited to hear the news of your baby! It sounds like you and Jon are doing well - that's great! Bless you during the pregnancy and thanks for sharing your journey with us....
Sarah Penner

Kristy said...

Good luck on keeping focused...With both boys and even now I feel sooo distracted all the time...hard to focus.I am looking forward to getting my brain back as time goes on...hopefully....We're so excited for the two of you!